Post by nidoqueenpug on Aug 26, 2010 16:51:12 GMT -5
I've always thought I was normal,
I had friends and I had bad days,
I had good days and I had enimies.
But recently confusion grabbed a hold of me,
And everything I'd say and do always went wrong,
That was the freak,
The freak within me.
She'd slowly creep out every now and then,
When ever I want things to go smoothly,
Then she'd make me say something stupid,
Something she knows that I'll regret.
Then she'd start to play with my emotions,
Get them to run high,
She get's me so confused,
Rage, selfpity, happiness, saddness, betrayel, Jealousy.
She'd cook them all up and my world is changed forever,
By the things I say and do.
This freak slowly takes me over,
Until it finally has a face,
And it looks just like mine.
I'd damn her to hell if I could,
But she's a part of me,
A part of who I tend to be,
Someone even I dispise,
But the damage is done.
And when it's finally over,
She disapears,
Leaving me in the aftermath,
Wondering what it is I had done,
To deserve this outcome.
All I can do is appologise.
And hope that they can forgive,
And hope that I don't screw things up anymore.
It's over. I give up.
I'm tired and I can't take it anymore.
The freaks gone, and I'm here now, alone.
Tired
I've had an exauhsting few weeks, and I give up!!
If you forgive, then fine.
If you still see the freak before you when you look at me,
Then fine. I don't give a shit anymore. I'm tired.
I want to be able to sleep again.
That's all I want now.
I tried to make amends, but I only screwed them up.
Can you blame me?!? You always contradict everything I say!
I really do give up trying to fix things.
I'm just tired
This is the way my life has been since my parents and lets just say i hope it never happens again.... PEACE!!!!!!
(a random poem i've writen i would like so feed back....)
I had friends and I had bad days,
I had good days and I had enimies.
But recently confusion grabbed a hold of me,
And everything I'd say and do always went wrong,
That was the freak,
The freak within me.
She'd slowly creep out every now and then,
When ever I want things to go smoothly,
Then she'd make me say something stupid,
Something she knows that I'll regret.
Then she'd start to play with my emotions,
Get them to run high,
She get's me so confused,
Rage, selfpity, happiness, saddness, betrayel, Jealousy.
She'd cook them all up and my world is changed forever,
By the things I say and do.
This freak slowly takes me over,
Until it finally has a face,
And it looks just like mine.
I'd damn her to hell if I could,
But she's a part of me,
A part of who I tend to be,
Someone even I dispise,
But the damage is done.
And when it's finally over,
She disapears,
Leaving me in the aftermath,
Wondering what it is I had done,
To deserve this outcome.
All I can do is appologise.
And hope that they can forgive,
And hope that I don't screw things up anymore.
It's over. I give up.
I'm tired and I can't take it anymore.
The freaks gone, and I'm here now, alone.
Tired
I've had an exauhsting few weeks, and I give up!!
If you forgive, then fine.
If you still see the freak before you when you look at me,
Then fine. I don't give a shit anymore. I'm tired.
I want to be able to sleep again.
That's all I want now.
I tried to make amends, but I only screwed them up.
Can you blame me?!? You always contradict everything I say!
I really do give up trying to fix things.
I'm just tired
This is the way my life has been since my parents and lets just say i hope it never happens again.... PEACE!!!!!!
(a random poem i've writen i would like so feed back....)
